Cry

Lord I’m not fully faithful to You
But I call out” guard, save my life for I am faithful to You”

I cry out reminding You of who you are…but really reminding me of who You are
I cry out for help when I have no right to

Why would you come to me?
Have you not seen? Have you not heard the darkness, the sickness, the disease that rests within my bones?


I say teach me Your ways…but do I really want to learn them and know them?
I pray instruct me in Your ways…but do I really want that- or am I just crying out in need?

God why do you look on me, when You know my sinful heart?
Why do You give grace when you hear my wandering thoughts and see my wandering eyes?

I say that I will give you praise…but You know that I turn that praise into praise of myself, of others, of things, of thoughts, of dreams

You still come…why? Why? WHY DON”T YOU LEAVE ME?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I am of no value …but You give me value.
I am not holy… but You make me holy
I run…but You come and hold me.
I fall, and curse the ground you place below my feet…and even curse You.
But You speak words of love and words of grace, words of healing.

I am the arrogant fool, I am the enemy of myself, slandering my mind and heart with thoughts and words to de-sanctify the body You’ve provided me with.

You come in and breathe Your breath. Blowing away the distortion.
Healing the ears that listen to the serpent.
Renewing the mind filled with deceit.
Purifying the eyes that burn with darkness, are now cleaned and clear.
Bringing rest to the heart
Speaking, soothing my soul.

OH Lord how You know I am a runner, and wander…oh Praise to You and Your grace. You are GREAT and there is none like You.
Teach me Jesus, teach me. You are good. You are good.









Inspired by: Psalm 86